It’s Ash here with a book that I have been writing over the past few months called Awake. It is about a girl who is diagnosed with Sleeping Beauty Syndrome (scientifically known as Kleine-Levin Syndrome) and the struggles she faces in order to live a normal life. The book is a young adult romance that focuses on the everyday problems teens face and the not-so normal problems a person who suffers Sleeping Beauty Syndrome must learn to live with. Below are three snippets from three spirit chapters that I think really capture the essence of the book. I hope you enjoy.
I had no idea what was going on with me, even the internet had no idea. The only sleeping disorder I had managed to actually understand was insomnia, something I definitely didn’t have. It was a disorder that kept you up at night, not make you struggle to stay awake during the day.
Without thinking about it, I closed my eyes and relished in the joyous feeling this brought my body. Even a little taste of what sleep is like was enough to satiate my tired mind. If anyone had of bothered to wonder why I slept through almost everything these days, I wouldn’t know what to tell them, let alone how to explain what I felt every time I closed my eyes.
The one rule universally known about quicksand is frustratingly simple, don’t move. I was always the person who laughed at the stupidity of the people who thrashed about trying to move. Didn’t they realise that the more they moved, the quicker they would die? I understand why they would move now.
A week ago my life sucked. I woke up in a hospital bed and found out I had died. I would take that feeling over how I feel right now. Then I had everyone I loved, everyone I needed, right by me. Now, I have no one and that is the worst feeling I have ever experienced. I can’t find the will to stay awake when I feel an episode coming. Why stop it? No one would miss me, sure they would notice I was gone but it wouldn’t change their lives.
When your problems are weighing you down and you don’t have the energy to fight against the current, how are you supposed to stop yourself from drowning?
I’m drowning. But to make it worse, I’m drowning alone.
Was it only today that Calum saw me, the girl he thought had left him for his best friend? The girl he thought had lied to him about having feelings for him. The girl he thought he loved. Did he some how know that I was crying over what could have been with another of his best friends? Was he even thinking of me?
I was a mess, but I was his mess and he didn’t even know it.