I can finally say I love who I am
It has taken many years to get to this point, but I can honestly say ‘ I love who I am’ . These words are not often used but they are some of the most important words we can say about ourselves.
When I was younger, I would talk about myself in a superficial way. I would talk about my hair or my eyes or my smile. I would happily talk about my wonderful personality (at least that I what tell others until they believed me) and openly announce just how confident and happy I was. However, as a teenager or young adult, if I took a look under the surface, I was never able to say ‘I love who I am’. More often than not, I hated who I saw in the mirror.
From the outside I was confident but inside the hatred lingered. I didn’t deserve to be loved deeply by anyone special. I didn’t deserve to have friends who cared for me, protecting me from the world. I didn’t deserve to be given opportunities that made me into someone special.
If I look back and try to determine what it was that caused my dislike for myself, I think it was that I was always so desperate to please everyone and in the end, I pleased no one.
I was a bossy child who wanted to get her own way.
I was a middle child who couldn’t get enough love and attention from Mum
I felt rejected by my friends if I thought I was being left out.
I took everything personally and often jumped to a conclusion before I knew the real story.
I thought everyone saw me as a confident, popular girl so I needed to behave that way.
Today I can say these words and I can say them proudly.
I deserve to be loved by someone special as I am special.
I deserve to have friends who look out for me and protect me from hurtful situations.
I deserve to be given opportunities as I am just as special as everyone else.
I am no longer bossy because getting your own way all the time leads to a lonely life.
I am still a middle child but the love I get from my mother is more than enough to nourish me.
I accept that I can not always be a part of what my friends and family are up to and I know they still love me.
I no longer take life so personally as I believe there is always a reason and if the people I surround myself with care for me, then I will always accept the reason.
I now know I am confident and popular but only because I believe in myself and love who I am.
Can you say these words – ‘I love who I am’?
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